Today is the begining of day 2 of the fast. I still feel fat and haven't eaten anything. I even refused to drink last night because I didn't want to feel bloated. I jogged my mile last night at 10:30pm. It was really cold outside, so I came back to the house. Today I'm doing 3 miles.
For as long as I can remember, I've been the thinner sister. There's just two of us, but I was always the smaller one. I just got home for the holidays and noticed my sister is losing weight. I don't know what she did or is doing and I really don't care, but SERIOUSLY?!?! Couldn't someone have warned me?? Do they want me to be the "fat" one in the family now? You have to be kidding me. I am NOT putting anything past these lips that could even resemble a calorie.
I was flipping through old pictures that my dad had taken on the digital camera last night. OMG!! Can we say FAT?? In one picture, I'm holding my little cousin and she is soooooo tiny. She weighs like 13 pounds at two yrs old. I couldn't believe the size of myself next to her.
I have other pics of my friend (one of my thinspo girls) and I wanted to vomit. She is so much thinner than I am. She wears a size 0 and I just want to be like that. She bent over the other day and I saw some of her spinal bones. I was totally in envy.
I'm going to do my 3 miles now and might drink a bottle of water after I'm done. I really hate being home for the holidays. There is food everywhere. The house smells like cookies, bread and cinnamon.
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